Sean Sbardella is a Barrington native who raps under the stage name of Meta P, short for metaphysics. He’s been writing his own songs for the last 15 years and in 2012 was named “Best Rap Act” by a Providence Phoenix poll.
In June, however, Mr. Sbardella twin’s sister Linsday passed away. It had been six years since she was diagnosed with Addison’s Disease, a typically non-life threatening auto immune disease.
Sean wrote “Dragonfly (My Other Heartbeat)” about a week after Lindsay’s death.
“It is so easy to write feelings that come naturally about someone you know better than anyone,” Mr. Sbardella said.
“Especially, when those emotions are recent and pouring out of you. She was everything beautiful to me — such a light person in what can be such a dark world.”
Mr. Sbardella said the song’s title and lyrics are a dedication to his sister and their relationship. “My Other Heartbeat” is a nod to the bond shared by the two twins while dragonflies were a symbol of beauty for Lindsay.
“She had them all over her room. After she passed we noticed a lot of dragonflies following friends and family around,” Mr. Sbardella said.
“To me they are a very personal reminder of my sister.”
Mr. Sbardella filmed a music video for the song in a number of local spots, including Barrington Town Beach.
“Lindsay loved the beach and I thought a beautiful sunset was a perfect way to say good-bye to her,” Mr. Sbardella said.
While Mr. Sbardella can’t show the song to Lindsay, he said she would probably cry and give him a hug. That’s how his mother reacted.
“My mom’s reaction was similar to what I just described, so I’d imagine Lindsay would share the way my mom felt,” Mr. Sbardella said.
“Lindsay was an extremely positive person. She smiled a lot. I have no doubt she knew how much I loved her throughout life. However, this confirmation would certainly make her break down.
Mr. Sbardella said he’s played the song for family and friends. He said the reactions have been emotional given the universal impact of loss.
“I think the emotions in this song are universally characteristic of people who are dealing with such a severe loss,” Mr. Sbardella said.
“You can barely believe it … It wasn’t supposed to happen. But there you still are trying to make any sense out of it you can. I suppose the best thing to do is keep living life and honoring their memory by remaining strong.”
To hear Sean Sbardella’s tribute to his late sister Lindsay “Dragonfly “My Other Heartbeat)” and see the video, search for Meta P “Dragonfly “My Other Heartbeat) on YouTube.